Soup With a Fork

I feel like trying to balance my life right now is like eating soup with a fork. School is pouting as it sits in the optional third row seating in the Volvo station wagon of my life, instead of sitting up front next to me in the passenger seat. In the passenger seat is my social life - and it's acting like a sullen teenager.

I'm having difficulty prioritizing. Scratch that, I'm having difficulty with my priorities. School should be on the top of my list, right? THEN my work, then my social life, right? That's what the list looks like, so it's not the prioritizing per say, it's what's actually taking priority.

Enter: Sullen Teenager Social Life
I have serval groups of friends, some are friends with each other, others are sort of on their own. Overall though, I have a core that's usually at the top of my list for quality time. Lately, I've felt I've given them the shaft. Kind of unconsciously. It seems like all of a sudden, friends are coming out of the woodworks that need to spend time with me that aren't a part of that core and I feel obligated - usually due to the amount of time that has passed since we last saw each other - to arrange a social event. In the meantime, this core that usually trumps is now falling down the ladder and I'm not doing much to stop it.

One thing on my list of things that make me unhappy is poor social life management. I'm not managing my social life well right now - so I'm unhappy. I'm starting to feel that I'm just thinking myself to death, and not doing anything. And while I'm trapped in my head contemplating what Zen means to me, life has come at me full blast and I've - like a zombie - said Yes to one too many things. Truth: I miss spending every weekend with my core. A couple of weekends ago I thought it would be nice to give other friends some attention, but in reality, I just missed the people I wasn't with.

Current Zen Road Block: Managing the social life.
Detour: Pop in the 4-Wheel drive and bust through the barrier.

Now that the cause of my unhappiness has been determined, I can fix it. I think.