The List

(Okay, so acutally I had this musing a week or so ago, and just found it again. I think it's necessary to post)

How will I know when I find Zen? This question has been plaguing me for the past four weeks. I have no answer, no idea where to find the answer (lie: I’m pretty sure I can find the answer within myself, I just don’t know how, or which closet of my soul to look in). I can’t exactly type this one in to ask.com.

So I find myself frustrated. I want Zen and I want it now. (And I kind of want it covered in chocolate)

This expedition so far has tuned in my philosophical side. Finally! My minor is put to good use. But am I philosophizing about pertinent things? I feel I embarked on this journey to ultimately better myself in some way. Not to just lose weight and be happy, but to focus on what it is that makes me happy and not allow things that make me unhappy control my life.

Enter: THE LIST

Things that make me happy
Being confident in my body
Cooking for myself successfully
Spending quality time with friends and family
Getting good feedback from work
Feeling like I’m learning in school
Chocolate chip cookies
Puppies and Kittens

Things that make me unhappy
Feeling fat
Making poor food choices (well, it usually makes me happy at the time, but then I feel unhappy afterwards)
Not balancing time between people well
Douche bags

Seems simple enough. Note to self: avoid feeling fat, poor food choices, poor social life management and douche bags. Done. And apparently I feel this will bring me Zen. It’s a possibility. Frankly, everything’s possible (or is it anything’s possible?) on the road to Zen. But am I going to feel like a better person if I’m confident, a chef, a good friend/daughter/sister, an academic and cookie monster? Maybe. I guess we’ll have to see.