Emptying my head.

I am masquarading as a responsible adult. I am very uncertain of my future, and very uneasy about it. I am totally rocking out to Moztart right now. I am excited to go to China! I am scared that I will run out of money, get frustrated by the language barrier, or be quarenteened for having the swine flu. I am frustrated by the non-actions of someone, and frustrated that I give a shit about it. I am flattered by the actions of someone else, and nervous about what may come of it. I am wondering if the man in my dreams is turning out to not be the man of my dreams and the man I never dreamed about is actually the man I've always dreamed of. I am chosing to not over-think it, take it all at face value, and move on day by day. I am in dire need of a nap. I am wanting to rid my life of toxic people. I am doing nothing towards this hazardous waste depositing. I am worried that my cat is dying. I am procrastinating doing my homework because I don't want to do it. I am ready for school to be over...about four weeks ago.